Change

"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change
courage to change the things I can
and wisdom to know the difference."

-Reinhold Niebuhr

Okay so I'm trying to figure myself out right now. Without being too Neurotic I try to find the balance between improving who I am, and staying true to who I am and not worrying things I can't change. It's a tightrope.

On One hand, we have personal weaknesses and character traits that we need to improve upon, change, enlarge, or get rid of completely in our lives. To say that I am who I am and everyone should just except that is the same as giving up on life and making excuses for why you aren't the person you should be.

On the other hand though, you have to love yourself for who you are and it can be easy to just hit the "everything sucks" button and never be satisfied with anything about yourself. That's no way to live. This battle is ongoing, to recognize weaknesses, without unduly comparing ourselves to everybody else.

This has been the subject of a lot of prayer and fasting for me right now. I seem to vary between these two Ideals and don't spend a lot of time in that happy medium. Luckily though, life is really pretty good at this moment in time. I just want to make sure it stays that way.