Night at Home.

Well, I'm spending the night at home by myself. My ideal night is always doing something, anything, with a good group of friends. Sometimes though that's not available so here I am. Some nights that's a huge problem for me... I start going crazy. But today I am more than happy to just take a shower, get in my pajama's, pop some ibuprofen to finally get rid of the headache that's been following me all day, play some guitar, and stare at the one currently working lamp in the living room of our empty but usually crowded apartment. Another plus of my "me" night, I satisfied my #1 vice after over a month of painful sobriety... McDonald's. It was in celebration of two things, first I got my car keys back, thus McDonalds was in reach at 10 pm. The second reason for celebration is that my first semester is over. Thus the quarter-pounder with cheese in my lap right now and sprite on the coffee table next to my feet. I would like to quote my little brother Jared, one of the smartest people I know, "Anyone who says they don't like McDonald's is lying."

Did I mention my first semester is over? 1 down, 15 to go. At first that was super exciting to think about. Then it was extremely depressing to think, and now It's at once daunting yet fun to think about. I think one of the big reason I want to be a Doctor is just the audacity of it. It's a huge commitment, one that I really hope I can pull off. 8 years of college, plus residency and another year or two depending on what I choose to specialize in. (I think that's oncologist by the way, but I've got awhile yet to think about it.) When I say audacity, I mean that I want to do something that matters with my life. I want something that is hard, something that will stress me out when I get a single B (like beat my head into the wall today about because I didn't get the grade I needed on my science final to get an A). What's life if it isn't a stretch, an adventure, and a little bit crazy? People are always like, well that's a lot of school right? I can't help but think, there are doctor's aren't there?

It's been a learning experience for me this semester. I learned things like how much I love writing. How much I actually do enjoy science even though I don't think it comes as natural to me as classes like English and History do to me. I learned things like girls are always willing to give you a first date to be nice, and said date might even go perfectly... doesn't mean that they're interested. I've learned how much fun though it is to date around and just enjoy the chase for what it's worth, even when you're constantly guessing (and usually wrong!) I learned how much study school is really going to take, because I'm only a Freshman and the classes are only going to get harder. That's why I'm taking the study skills class next semester, hopefully I'll be able to use my time much more efficiently, instead of just staring at the screen in the Library zoning out. I learned how much I really like warm weather. I just might end up living in Arizona someday permanently. Until then I'll satisfy myself with trips every once in awhile. Like the one that starts THIS WEEKEND! Not that I'm excited... I definitely didn't spend all day today thinking about how excited I am. Nope. Didn't do that, that would be silly.

This post was fairly random but it's what's in my brain.

Peace